blue-ishgrey:

Your first time should not hurt.
There should never be blood.
And if he ever tries to make you do anything you do not want to do, you leave him.
I say this now and I want you to know this because tonight I was reviewing the key points of the relationship I lost my virginity in.
Every time he would finger me he would come up with blood on his hands and he would laugh it off
“oh haha it’s probs because you’re new to this”
and I was, and that’s why I didn’t say “Nope, we have an issue, there shouldn’t be any blood.”
The first time we had sex, when I lost my virginity, we ended up going three times in a row and the third time my vagina was like “alright, I’m out” and stopped producing a lubricant and I was like “hey this is painful and not fun anymore” and he was like “oh, okay I’ll make it quick” instead of stopping. Ten minutes later he proposed we go again.
And around 8 months in he started to expect sex every time we hung out, even when I didn’t want to, even when I said to him “no, I’m not up for that now.”
He would whip out his dick and shove his hand down my pants until I gave in.
And no school health class ever taught me that there shouldn’t be blood
No school health class ever told me it shouldn’t have been painful
No school health class ever told me that what he was doing was classified as rape.
I learned this shit here, on the internet, and through experience. And my new boyfriend asks why I’m always smiling around him and it’s because nothing ever hurts.
Never let these boys hurt you. Never let them use you or belittle you. Love yourself, understand your limits, and crush the assholes in your life.